This might be my longest post in but I hope you can take time out and read it.
Det här kan bli ett av mina längsta uppdateringar men jag hoppas att ni alla kan ta er tid att läsa. Jag sitter här med en välblandad drink, tårar i ögonen och kärlek i hjärtat. Jag ska försöka skriva detta utan att faktiskt fälla en tår men det är nästan kört redan nu. För exakt 14 dagar sen fick jag ett sms där det stod "inatt drömde jag att du vann queens". jag ryckte mer eller mindre på axeln och tyckte att "ja, men det har jag drömt sen många år tillbaka.."
För 10månader sen så övervägde jag vad jag skulle göra med min bowling. Om jag skulle sluta eller ge allt jag hade. Jag vägrar att ge upp och därför blev det inte så då heller. jag valde att planera om min vardag, mitt fokus, valde att avstå att spela större tävlingar och bara träna. Jag var tvungen att planera om allt, ALLT. Mitt självförtroende var lägre än någonsin, jag kände ingen glädje, jag visste inte i vilken ände jag skulle börja. Mitt mål var att börja tävla i januari och att i maj månad spela min absoluta favorittävling på hela året, USBC Queens men jag visste inte vad jag skulle förvänta mig. Jag ska erkänna att jag kände mig ringrostig när jag väl skulle ställa mig på tävlingsbanan igen men det kändes som en kul utmaning. Jag har jobbat vansinnigt mycket på min mentala bit, oerhört mycket på min teknik och lagom mycket för att hitta kärlek igen till sporten.
5 månader efter det får jag det där smset, som jag innerst inne ville tro på men inte riktigt vågade.
& nu sitter jag här idag.
jag kan inte med ord beskriva hur mycket kärlek jag känner för varenda liten själ som har hört av sig under veckan, jag är förevigt tacksam för det stöd jag har fått - det har gett mig så otroligt mycket självförtroende, glädje, kärlek, hopp och vilja.
jag tror inte NI förstår hur stor del NI har i detta att göra. det blev ingen tiara idag men mina ögon och mitt hjärta glittrar mer än vad den stackars tiaran någonsin kommer att göra. TACK TACK TACK TACK TACK för att ni orkar skriva dessa sms, uppdateringar, skickat bilder, filmer.
Tack till mina fantastiska föräldrar Eva & Peter för att ni hjälpt mig till dit jag är idag - ni gör mig till en bättre människa och en bättre bowlare. Tack till Andreas som visat sitt stöd, kärlek och hjälp till att sända finalen. Tack till Kim för dina fantastiska uppdateringar och sms. jag har utan tvekan en av dom mest stöttande och trogna familjemedlemmarna man kan önska sig. Jag vill tacka Nina, Ida, Isabelle, Anneli & Victoria för att ni fanns på plats och hejade järnet!
Jag kanske inte fick min tiara, men jag har iallafall hittat min 👑. Fantastiska, underbara, älskadeJohan Sörensenn. Att du orkar med mina humörsvängningar, lugnar mig när jag är uppe i varv och ger mig energi när jag behöver det som mest. Du är one of a kind ♡
Mina vansinnigt bra vänner där hemma ifrån, ord kan inte förklara hur mycket jag älskar er!
Min chefEva Karlssona som välkomnade mig med öppna armar på min nya arbetsplats, gav mig ledigt inför det här och dessutom följer mina resultat. du är utan tvekan en drömchef och jag är så tacksam!!
I wanna thankCecil Scarborol and Vise for helping me out with the best grips, tapes and support a bowler could ask for.
I wanna thankBill Chrismanl &Barbara Chrismana for letting me be a part of the best company and bowlingfamily there is. I am so thankful I get to use the best equipment on the market and I can't thank you enough for what you do for me. Jim Callahanm &Hank Boomershinek - your thoughts, knowledge and support is unbelievable. Thank you!
Last but not least. The man who believed in me when I doubted myself the most,Del Ballardl. I can't with words describe what your support means to me. I was on the rock bottom and you were still there for me. I wish I could dedicated a win to you today but this second place is kind of a win in my heart and I wouldn't be where I am today without you.
I bowled my heart out today, I have no regrets and I enjoyed almost every second of it ;) unfortunately it was not enough -Bernice Lime did a great run and is a true Queen in my eyes. Congrats on your win sweetie!
I promise you all, that if you Google this text you might get an idea of what I'm feeling right now.
This is just the start though. I am so happy to be back.
And whatever you do, do not ever give up. It will hurt, it will take time, it will require dedication, it will require willpower. You will have to make healthy decisions. It requires sacrifice. There will be temptations. But when you reach your goal, it will be worth it.
Don't you ever forget that!
That's all for now.
I truly love you all.
#RotoGrip #OwnIt #ViseInserts #LoveTheLanes #TeamNeverGiveUp
i can finally breath again.
that was close but i have no words to describe how happy, excited and proud i am of myself for making this cut and to bowl with a good mindset and make good decisions with the help of the boys (Del, Hank and Jim). i am really looking forward to be going into matchplay tomorrow morning. fingers crossed please!
to get my mind off bowling for a little while we went shopping after lunch. new kicks and makeup, two of the best things i know. the third favourite store we just walked by.. cant go in there until i make some more money.. haha hopefully a visit later on this week ;)
its mostly bowling now. i dont do more than bowl at the moment. i bowl, i eat, i sleep, i bowl, i eat, i sleep.
im amazed that i can get up at 5.15am and not even be grumpy. other than that time difference sucks. its 7pm and im sooooo tired and ready to go to sleep. the others are sitting outside hanging out but my body just dont wanna move so im just gonna stay in my bed the rest of the evening to get ready for tomorrow.
gonna catch up on some shows.
ok, thats it for today.
wish me luck!
laying down on my bed with a well deserved glass of wine in my hand. relaxing and just enjoying my company.
we have bowled 10games so far out of 15games of qualifying. im on B squad so i bowled my first 5 games on burn and shot +124 which i was very happy about. i stayed focused and made good shots throughout the whole time.
today was a different story though. we bowled on fresh and i didnt get comfortable enough to just bowl until the last game but im proud of myself for fighting through and finishing off on a good note with a +45. this means that im +169 for my ten games. we have on day left of qualiying, 5 more games tomorrow before the cut to top 64 including the defending champion.
short update but thats all for now.
watching xtraframe and waiting for chipotle for dinner. YUM
the link above will show our schedule for the next few days.
i am bowling on B squad while the other swedes are on A squad.
the results can be found at www.bowl.com/queens/
i have realized that i have a love-hate relationship with traveling. it absolutely sucks to leave home, to pack, to spend x many hours traveling but when you finally get to where youre going its absolutely amazing and i love every second of it. so worth it.
reunion with mamabear tonight too. eeeeeeeek
good morning from Vegas!
I landed last night, it was a long day but everything went smooth.. except for one part. I got taken to the side for a whole body search through both in Copenhagen and in San Francisco hahaha. Very awkward but made it through 🤘
Went straight to bed went I got to the hotel. Spending the first night at the hotel where we are gonna bowl - The Orleans. From tonight and until I leave I'm gonna be staying at a friends house with mamabear and a few others! Gonna be nice to get out of these crazy casino hotels.
Today we are just gonna have a relaxing day. Off to practice now and later on its pool time!
We are a few swedes here:
And me :)
I will post all the details about the tournaments later today so stay tuuuuuned!
yep its that time of the week again.
i hate sundays. especially the sentimental ones. which is pretty much every sunday.
im exhausted both mentally and physically.
mentally cause i have so many feelings inside of me and im not sure how to handle them - im not used to this
im happy excited nervous curious confused sad and happy again all at the same time
physically cause i have had a lot of stuff going on lately and a lot that needs to be done in so little time
i feel everything so very deeply and i do everything one hundred percent
please dont get me wrong, i love everything that is going on in my life right now but im just trying to take it all in.
i just got home from spending the weekend with Team Sweden in Kinna. had a great time bowling, bonding, eating, learning and planning the next few weeks. although my schedule is already set its still good to make it even more obvious to what i should do and shouldnt do. it was our last get together before the actual trip.
only 3 weeks left before departure! crazy how time flies!
so today is sunday
tomorrow is monday so back to reality, i got work, laundry and preparing for next trip on my schedule
tuesday will be work and then off to helsingborg for a small celebration of our team gold we have been invited to, then straight home to pack.
wednesday is day one of my 12+14 days on the road.
now its bedtime.
en hel del har hänt sen sist kan man väl säga.
1. jag skriver på svenska.
nej men på riktigt. jag kan inte med ord beskriva hur rent av jävla lycklig jag är just nu, efter ett sånt riktigt skit år. nu känner jag äntligen mig tillbaka.
om vi ska summera det hela:
- vunnit SM-Guld i 8manna lag med mina ljusblåa töser, Spader Dam.
- nytt jobb, har tagit farväl till kicks och säger hej till grannbyn Höganäs och Gruvtorgets Parfymeri.
- jag har sett Adele live i Köpenhamn, en dröm. 2h konstant gåshud och tårar i ögonen.
- jag har blivit uttagen till att spela Dam-EM i Wien senare i sommar, vilket innebär att jag är tillbaka i den blå/gula tröjan, på riktigt. YAAAAAAAY
- jag har erhållit ett stipendium för goda ledarkunskaper för mina ungdomar som jag coachar i bowling.
- och sen den där sista detaljen, som känns som en pusselbit som fallit på plats. det finns någon som har förgyllt mina dagar med massvis av glädje och kärlek på sistone.
och som om inte detta vore nog så ser mina kommande månader ut såhär:
- Las Vegas, USA för USBC Queens May 18-29
- Wien, Österrike för European Womens Championships Juni 7-19
- Houston, USA & Chicago, USA för Luci Doubles and US Open Juli 27-Aug 8
- 25år Augusti 19
gissa vem som är exalterad?!
ok så denna gången ska jag försöka ta med min dator på resorna, då det är väldigt mycket lättare att blogga på en dator än en liten telefon/ipad. ibland blir det på svenska, ibland på engelska, ibland inget av de och ibland båda. tid, ork och dagsform kommer att avgöra hahaha
nedanför så har ni en namn till mina sociala medier, missa inte att följa dessa!
32h jobb, 2 dagars landslagsläger lördag och söndag, och sist men inte minst: lite träning, packning och klotborrande.
nej nu jävlar ser jag fan stjärnor så trött jag är.
o m g
alot has happened since i last updated on here.
first of all I finally got my laptop back.
just wow. the past month has been truly aaaaaaaaamazing.
no words in the world can describe how happy i am, after such a long terrible year with
alot of downfalls im finally feeling that im back on track.
so to sum it all up, since last time we talked i have;
- won the swedish championships in teams with my ladies in Spader Dam. read more about it here: http://www.swebowl.se/Bowlingimedia/Pressrelease1/Anunforgetableweekend/
- new job, i said goodbye to my colleagues at Kicks and you can from here on find me at Gruvtorgets Parfymeri i Höganäs.
- ive seen Adele live in Copenhagen, 2hours of goosebumps and teary eyes.
- ive been selected to the European Womens Championships, which means im officially back on Team Sweden - YAAAAAY
- ive recieve a scholarship for good leadership with youths for the south part of sweden, as I got for coaching my youth team in bowling.
- and there is one special person that is bringing so much love and happiness into my life right now, he is a big part to why these past few weeks has been over the top.
as if that was not enough. the next few months i have following plans;
- Las Vegas, USA for the USBC Queens May 18-29
- Vienna, Austria for the European Womens Championships June 7-19
- Houston, USA & Chicago, USA for Luci Doubles and US Open July 27-Aug 8
- 25th birthday on August 19
GUESS WHOS EXCITED?! me me me me me me me me me me
my plans is to actually bring my computer on my trips to be able to blog and maybe even make a few videos for you guys. I have also recieved a request to write in both swedish and english and I will try as much as possible but sometimes there is no time to translate it all so depending on my daily mood, i will write in swedish, english or both hahaha.
to not miss out on too much I suggest for you to follow me on
facebook: sandra lilltussen andersson
ok, so take off on wednesday. before im ready to leave i still have to work 32h, 2 day camp with Team Sweden in Kinna this weekend, workout, practice, drill bowlingballs and pack.
now its bed time
Today felt like Christmas!
I received a case of 4 new balls.
Drilled the phaze today, Ive been looking forward to that ball for soooo many days now. I have a feeling that I'm gonna love this ball. I will find out tomorrow when I finally get to throw it. Can't wait!!
Other than drilling that ball I've just had a relaxing day with mom. It's been great catching up with my loved ones (& myself) the past two days. Tomorrow is back to work again! It's gonna be tough few days ahead, so I better get some good nights sleep now.
Highlight of the day: new balls & spending time with mom
Darkside of the day: my tattoo is so sore (only have myself to blame but since this is my blog then yes I'm gonna be bitching about it 😂) and I'm still tired.
Work, practice and ball drilling on the schedule tomorrow. 💪
Sundays are my favorite, mondays not so much
Another great Sunday in the books.
Mondays though. 😣 i feel like I need to sleep for a week to make up for the weekend. I only got a few hours between Saturday and Sunday. Good thing is that I'm having the day off today and tomorrow.
I spent my Monday at the tattoo studio finishing up my hand tattoo. Love Daniels ideas and he really did an amazing job, I'm so pleased with it.
Not sure if I'm done there though ;)
The afternoon was spent with Emily & Monia, catching up over lunch/dinner and drinks (as in Pepsi) 😊
Now I'm just home watching a few episodes of Orphan Black. ✌
Best part of today: getting my tattoo done
Worst part of today: ?
And Monia - thanks for reading my blog and keeping an eye on me 😘 haha.
I think all the small pieces are slowly falling into place. I'm extremely happy and proud of myself after today's two matches. I bowled very well, I was focus, made good moves and most importantly I believed in myself and what I did.
Obviously a big step in the right direction.
We bowled on two different pattern in two different bowling centers. First off was Los Angeles. It hooked TONS. First shot Frida took out 3 in the left corner with urethane. It just didn't stop. So we had to increase ballspeed like alot. After 5 frames when we could finally get a normal ball reaction. Threw my IQ Tour the rest of the games. Ended up +38 and we won.
Second match was on Athens. This was totally different. Went from 5 steps to 4 steps to slow down my speed, used my haywire with a lot of surface to get a good ballreaction. Again, there's it so good, I was in control the whole time. +113 and second win of the day.
Must say the ladies did a great job today, so proud of each and everyone. Only 8 girls and we managed to win both matches. 💙
OK so now I'm on my way home. Food and then off to work. It's gonna be a little easier after today's bowling!! :)
Have a lovely Saturday x
a different kind of friday
I'm actually proud of myself today:
•I got up earlier than I had to to vacuum my apartment (cause I couldn't do that last night at 1.30am, you're welcome neighbours!) so now my home really feels like a home.
And also this was good today:
•Got ready for work & my eyeliner was on fleek today
•Work was good, enjoyed my day.
•Got to spend the evening with Emma, homemade pizza & movies.
•Feeling much better!
I'm in bed now, gonna put on a movie and fall asleep. Tomorrow is going to be one LONG day.
Wakeup call: 6.45am
William is picking me up around 8am
Driving to Borås (~2,5h drive)
Bowl league 4 games
Drive to Vänersborg (~1,5h drive)
Bowl league 4 games
Drive back home (~3h drive)
Guess who's gonna be sleeping in the car?
Ok so let's do
Best part of today: the feeling I have right now
Worst part of today: can't think of anything
A late post about yesterday. It was my first day in a very long time that I got to sleep in and guess what? I slept like 2-3h and woke up really early.
So I got up, went over to the studio where I do my tattoos to book a new sessions to finish the one on my hand then straight back to the couch and stayed there until 4.30pm. Got to nap a little but didn't really get back the hours I have missed out on lately. I'm tired but I can't sleep. It's really annoying.
I had to get up at 4.30pm to shower and get ready for work. We had a meeting after the store was closed, took us about 2,5h and it was so interesting! Can't really share more than that. 😆
After the meeting I headed down to the bowl for some practice with mom. We worked on my shoulder position & analysing different solutions. The last 10 min was really good!
When I finally got back home I, for some reason, felt the need to start cleaning. So I cleaned my apartment. I was done at 1.30am. Had to force myself to fall asleep around 2am. So stupid and of course now when my alarm goes off I'm dead tired. 😴
Schedule for the day:
Spend the rest of the evening on the couch
Worst part about yesterday: not being able to sleep. Next week I'm gonna try and get back some cardio in my schedule and hope my knee will be OK with it.
Best part about yesterday: I got to practice and discuss stuff with my mom. ♡
practice x 2
I'm so not a morning person. My eyes didn't wanna open this morning when my alarm went off at 7.15am. Not only was I tired, I didn't feel well either. I felt dizzy, I lost my balance a few times and my eyes couldn't really focus. This has been going on all day today. I felt a little sick too so I couldn't really eat anything. I'm feeling a little bit better, not as dizzy but still my eyes and balance is still not 100% and I have a headache now. I tried and pulled myself together for work, short day so it was OK.
After work I went home for a nap then down to the bowling center for a coaching session and practice. First practice was no good. Didnt have much energy, had problems focusing on what I was doing. 1,5h just tried to get the right feeling, discussing balls and lane play with the boys. Took a break for an hour to eat and then on it again. Practice number two went so much better. My main focus was to "visualise my game plan" and go out and do it. Still a bit tired and some bad shots but overall an OK session and I'm happy I went back down on the lanes to figure it out. #TeamNeverGiveUp
So now I'm back home, gonna dress down & cuddle up on the couch and watch one or two episodes of Orphan Black. 👌
Best part of today: that I didn't give up, I decided to bowl some more to get the good feeling back. Proud of myself for doing that even though I feel like ass today.
Worst part of today: without a doubt how I'm feeling today. Note to self: drink more water!
Tomorrow I get to sleep in!!
Have a meeting at work around 6pm & then coaching session from 7-8pm. I just can't wait to not wake up by an alarm tomorrow 😂😂
take care lovers,
The good days just keep coming
I don't know what I have done lately to deserve this but today was another great day. Work was good but the highlight of today was for sure when my bff frida (who lives 3h away from me) steps into my work and surprises me. ❤ happy tears! Some well needed catching up to do.
Today was also time for house league in shuffleboard. So far we were dead last in the results but today we stepped up and won our first match!! Yaaaaaay.
After all that me and frida went to the supermarket to buy us some fresh pineapples, oranges, grapes to have as snacks while watching TV and talking the rest of the night. Just lovely.
My heart and soul is now filled with love and energy. How cheezy?! Hahaha 😊
BTW I think I forgot to tell you about me rescuing a bird yesterday at work. One dad and his daughter came in the store yesterday saying "flying, there" and me and Sophia who I worked with didn't really understand what he was trying to tell us but he pointed at the floor underneath the shelves and there was this black bird - terrified and confused. He was injured and not able to fly. We tried to get him out of the store but he jumped right into the glass windows. I had to run and get my gloves and then try to catch him to take him outside in the bushes. Poor little thing! I didn't know what else to do than to let him go.. what are you supposed to do? I hope he's alright.
Best part of today: frida is here
Worst part of today: I was freezing all day.
Tomorrow: work, work, coaching, practice.
sweet dreams lovers
Today has been awesome.
I can't remember last time I was smiling and laughing as much as I did today.
Started off with work. I can't believe that I actually enjoy even cleaning up at work, haha. I just love when everything is nice, clean and in the right place. The hours went by so quickly and when the clock was 5.30pm I checked out and ran as fast as I possibly could in my high heels to the movies to meet up with my girls to watch the new movie "how to be single". As if I need a movie to tell me how to 😂
It was the funniest movie I have seen in such a long time. I was crying laughing.
After the movies we went back to Emmas place to hang out us girls. Laughing, gossiping, playing games. Just a lovely Monday.
Best part of today: all the laughter
Worst part of today: it went by so quickly
Tomorrow: work, house league in shuffleboard & practice