slowly getting better

Starting to feel better again. I have been feeling sick since Friday. I got my cold back but it was 10 times worse this time. I was bowling with a bad cold and and fever on Saturday, qualified for Junior Masters, a youth tournament in our bowling center that is held last weekend and the coming weekend. I bowled +5 on my 6games on Seoul. 
I had no energy left in my body after bowling, I didn't get much sleep on the night before either so I went straight from the lanes to the couch in the TV room at the bowl. "Why didn't you just go back home to get some sleep?" Cause I couldn't!  I was gonna start working 1,5h later. FUUUUUUUN 
took a quick nap before showering and getting ready for work.  

Work 5pm-midnight 

Fell asleep late 
Alarm went off early
Sunday 
Work 11am-5.30pm 
Sleep
Monday 
Bed all day
Tuesday
Bed all day
Wednesday
First day I left my apartment this week. 
Haha I was actually excited to see the world again! Met up with Johanna around lunchtime to help her out with some stuff, to have lunch together and just hang out for a while. So good to see her again. This girl is the craziest, funniest, most awesome girl I know. ♡ love spending time with her. 

Also the last Wednesday before Christmas so we had a small tournament with the youth bowlers I coach, today. I am so proud of how far they have come just over a few months and I am so excited to see what the future has in store for them. Can't wait to start up in January! 

After practice today me and mom ordered food and had a mom and daughter evening. Time just flew by. 

Back home now, trying to plan the rest of my week. Really exciting stuff coming up this week. Dinners planned, catch up with people I haven't seen for ages, bowling etc.  


Makeup Store

I am so happy that I took the course I did a few months ago, to become a makeup artist. Today I was back at the store working together with Tina, first time we were working together. What artist funny, sweet and caring young girl! It feels weird to say young girl, but I'm gonna say it since I'm older than her haha. I had a great time working today, I feel more confident now. Can't wait to get back on Sunday!  

So I was working all day today. 

But what did I do yesterday? 
Eh. 
I was sleeping. Coaching. Practicing. Last but not least had a late meeting. 
I was home around 9.45pm. 

So what am I gonna do tomorrow? 
HANGOUT WITH JOSEFINE!!!!!!!!!
and gym and bowl and eat But most importantly
HANGOUT WITH JOSEFINE!!!!!!!!! 


yeeeeeees

I did it! I went to the gym for a 50min RPM class and it felt AWESOME! I was dead afterwards. I pushed myself so hard that I actually felt dizzy getting of the bike, haha. Not only did I feel dead, I felt happy too. So happy that I went straight to the bowl and practiced for a little while. 

I don't wanna jinx myself but I think my motivation is back, iiiiiiiih excited. 

Maybe I should take it from the beginning? 

Ive actually had a great day today. Except the fact that I only slept for like 5h last night (don't hate, I need my sleep). I did it with a smile though, I planned to surprise my mom with breakfast. Alarm was set for 7.30am, got up, showered and got ready. Left my apartment right after 8am to go to the store and buy all the stuff I needed for a perfect breakfast. 

Freshly made baguettes, cheese, smoked ham, luxury shrimp creamy thingy, vegetables, quark with warm raspberries and blueberries. 

I think my mom got surprised, I actually "warned" her with a text before I left to go to the store but anyways :) she deserves the best. 

After we had that delicious breakfast and after we were done talking about everything inbetween heaven and earth, I decided to go back home to take a quick nap before my meetings. I had one scheduled but it turned out to be two or actually three cause we scheduled one for tomorrow as well. I dont wanna share just yet what they are about but as soon as I know more about the meetings I promise to let you guys know! :) stay tuned! 

I squeezed in lunch with a dear friend today too. Thai buffet, tea time, lots of laugther and also serious discussions. I really enjoyed it! 

That was pretty much it for today, you know the rest. Gym. Bowling. I have done more today than the past week, haha. 

Taking the day off the gym tomorrow. It's all about bowling instead. Coaching the kids, practice and then the meeting. 

HOLD THE HORSES

Guess what this girl did today? 
25min powerwalk to the gym 
Core - class 
25min powerwalk to the bowl
Bowled house league 4games 

That's the most I have done in one day the past week! Hahaha. I'm proud of myself! 

I'm definitely feeling better in my body than last week. My cold is pretty much gone and I have a little more energy. Bad thing is I haven't been eating as much as I maybe should have so it was really tough today at the gym. I felt weak and couldn't really focus on what I was doing but I'm happy I went there anyways and I'm sure I will wake up sore tomorrow.

I'm gonna gave have to work hard now to get it back into routines but I'm pretty sure I can do it! Don't you think? 

What makes me happy is that I haven't lost all of it: 


Bowling was fun the first two games and the last game. I haven't been bowling more than once last week cause of being sick so I was actually pretty happy with how well I was throwing it today. I had control. I was good at reading the ball reaction and also knowing what was different between the not so good shots. 

Having a few meeting tomorrow but other than that I plan on doing some cardio or a class at the gym. Wish me luck 

life

There is nothing I fear more than being alone. Don't get me wrong, I can appreciate some alone time too but most of the times when I'm all by myself my head just keeps going. Over thinking every single situation in my life, or should I'm say over thinking my life. 
I'm the happiest version of myself when I'm surrounded by people. I don't have to nor do I want to be in focus the whole time, but that is when I can relax, laugh and just be. 

I have since Monday afternoon, been stuck in bed cause of what I believe is my first sick moment of 2014. I haven't talked to anyone, mainly cause I don't have a voice at the moment, but also cause I have been too busy going through picture after picture, video after video to figure out my situation. 
I'm stuck in after evil circle where I'm so afraid to fail that I can't even give myself a chance to succeed. I want everything I do to be perfect. Everything. Home, work, relationships, body, bowling. Everything. 

I feel that I'm running but I'm not really sure where I'm going. 

I wanna be good enough. 

I have so high expectations on myself and I don't know how to get rid of them. 

I have been so busy lately making sure everyone else is ok that I kinda forgot about myself. I haven't even though about myself. I've been too busy caring about others. AND AGAIN don't get me wrong. It means the world to me to make the people around me feel good and be happy. I have been OK with that until now when I got a day and a half by myself and realized I have pushed myself aside. 

OK I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. Does this make sense? Very common question in this blog btw. 

I feel happy but at the same time I don't.  How is that even possible?

Blaaaah. 

I just hate winter. Winter makes me depressed. 

I'm not even crying when making this update. I just feel empty. I need some energy and this I'm gonna get by getting back at the gym. I'm a fighter. I'm not gonna give up. I just need to clear my thoughts a bit and this is where I do so. I need to put myself and my body first now. So stupid cold please go away, leave me alone. I'm too busy for this sh*t. 

Let's make the last 28 days of this year freaking amazing, OK?  

♡ 

weekend: 5 out of 5 ☆

I am still tired after the weekend but I'm also still smiling from it. I had no idea the weekend was gonna turn out as good as it did. I love being spontaneous and we were. 

So if Friday counts to the weekend I can start to share that day with you. My mom picked me up at the trainstation around 2pm, stopped by the bowl to drop off my bowlingballs on the way home. When I finally got home I took a shower and got ready to leave again, since mom was gonna go away over the weekend I got to borrow mom's car, so I decided to go visit on of my closest friends at her work. Such a cozy boutique way out in the middle of nowhere. It's a clothing boutique combined with a small part with delicate candy, chocolate, cheese, crackers and on and on and on. It's pretty much heaven. It's called Elin & Arvid for my swedish readers if you ever wanna go there, it's a must if you're in my area! 
Made myself some dinner and spent the evening on the couch. 

Saturday I woke up pretty early but stayed in bed until like 11am. Got up and got ready for a day of doing errands and bowling league. I was pretty happy with myself with all the things I got done during lunch. At first. Cause later on I realized I forgot to do half the things I was supposed to do, hahaha. Oh well. Good thing is I have plenty of time this week to get it done, at least I got the most important stuff done. 
Bowled league with my favorite girls and we did a great job, again. I'm so proud of my girls especially my doubles partner Cajsa who bowl a great score. :) 
On my way home from Helsingborg where I bowl league, I texted Frida, who was gonna bowl league with her guys team in Malmoe (which is more south than I live) and asked her to stop by my house to go out with me. I got the answer: I'm wearing winter boots, a pair of jeans and a sweat shirt, I can go out looking like this. 
Luckily, we have the same size shoes. Unfortunately, we do not have the same size shirt. Luckily, I'm a problemsolver. My answer: the supermarket is open and they have a clothing section, I promise we will find something there. SAID AND DONE! about 45min later I picked her up and we went to the store and found an outfit for her. Got Ready for a girls night out - and trust me when I say it was a top 10 night out. Holy CRAP we had a bunch of fun. Went to bed at 7am. Long time since last time that happened. 

Woke up on Sunday feeling sick right before 10am. Not sick as in having to throw up. Sick as in the worst freaking cold. I have lost my voice and my nose is just blocked. 
Oh well, only after a few hours sleep I took a shower and dressed up: I was gonna get great company on my Sunday!  JOSEFINE! 😍 
Aw my lovely best friend josefine came to visit me. ♡ 
Perfect timing, we had a lot to catch up on and just having her here made me happy. I had prepared with cheese, crackers, chocolate and all that from Emmas work, for us. Zacke joined us too. Great ending to this weekend. 

Monday is the worst day of the week in my opinion but this one was not bad at all. Me and mom went to Ikea and another shopping center for a mother and daughter day. 

Keep the good days coming! 


amsterdam

Sitting at the airport thinking back on the trip to Qatar. It took me a while to do this post cause I wanted have some time and reflect about it. 

I am so disappointed. I have so high expectations on myself at the moment and I was so devastated after bowling 3 squads AND the desperado. 11 hours in the bowling center, 19 games of bowling. My best squad was ~80 over and it took +117. 

I struggled so much to carry. The pattern was tough. It was not hard to get to the pocket but to carry, if you did changes you could easily end up leaving splits. As in more than just one. 
I never got the feeling that I could just bowl and enjoy it, I had to chase it the whole time. Need to figure out a way to get out of that zone. 

On my way home now. I have made it to Amsterdam. 3h more and then it's time to fly to Copenhagen, then a 1,5h train ride before I'm home. 
I cannot wait to go home, sleep in my own bed, eat some Christmas food tonight haha and then go back to practice. I need more practice. I need to get stronger in my mental game. I need to prepare better for AIK. 

#determined. 

squad 1

My bowlingballs made it just in time for the last squad yesterday. Actually, we arrives to the bowling center only a few mins before the squad was gonna start. A little stressed out but so excited to bowl. 

My plan with that squad was to bowl and collect as much information as possible for today. Even though I have bowled in this bowling center before I still feel like I know nothing about it. I have NEVER bowled good here. There is just something about this center that it's can figure out but yesterday's squad put me one step closer. 

I'm not sure about my total score but I bowled 180, 210, 220 and 170x3. I shouldn't have move that far left as I did yesterday, I think that is what I have done wrong every single time. I'm gonna try and stay a little further right (we are still talking like feet on 25) and let my Hyroad pearl do the work in the end. 

Yesterday my Asylum, IQ Nano and Hy Road Pearl had the best look. 

Giving it another try now at noon. 


Doha, Qatar

The last day and a half has taken so much energy. Traveling itself takes alot of energy but when it doesn't run smoothly AT ALL, yea I have no words for it. 

I'm just gonna explain and let you decide if I'm exaggerating or not. 

It all started with a 2.30am wake up call and I was so tired cause I only got 2h sleep.. my own fault I guess but I just couldn't fall asleep. Got up, showered, got dressed and packed the last few things before mom picked me up at 3.30am. 
We drove to the airport, it took us a little over an hour cause we made one stop for breakfast on the way down. 

When we got to the airport, mom gave me a big hug, wished me luck and drove back home. I took all my stuff and went to the check - in desk. I thought: "this is gonna be an easy trip since I already paid for my extra bag and I'm probably gonna sleep the whole flight." HA! If only I knew what was coming. 

When I stood there at the desk she told me there is a possibility that I'm gonna miss my flight cause it's overbooked. I told them that I have  to be in Doha tonight and they promise me that will happen. 
Boarding at 5.30am and when it was my turn to go through the last check point they called me to the side and said "hey, we need to change you flight cause it's full." 
GREAAAAT 
my options: 
1. Fly out at 11 am, have a layover in frankfurt and get to Doha at 9.30pm.
2. Fly straight from Copenhagen to Doha at 3pm and get there one our later. 
So my options from my point of view: 
1. Fly our earlier but give them a chance to mess it up with bags or even get unlucky and miss my connection flight 
Or
2. Sit at cph airport in 9h and fly straight. 

I chose option number two. 

I got free access to the lounge and also 4400dkk as a compensation. 
It took me about two hours to get all that fixed with new tickets, vouchers etc. When I finally got to the lounge I had breakfast number two and then I built a bed out of two chairs and fell asleep. I slept off and on for about 4h and then it was time to eat something before heading over to my gate. 

Boarded. 
Flight was good. I had the whole row to myself, like literally the whole row to myself. Of course I took advantage of this and laid down and slept. Well after I cried my eyes out when watching the movie "the fault in our stars". 
Woke up just before we were gonna land cause the whole plane was shaking, so turbulent but the landing was good. 

Went through customs without and problems but went I got to the belt where my luggage was supposed to be at, I couldn't find them. Sad face.  
They had 9h to get my bowling bags on the flight and they failed. 
Made the report and left the airport and hour and a half later. 

No bowling balls and 6 hours later than I was supposed to. 

It's 5.30pm now. I still have no bowlingballs but I'm gonna go to the airport in 30mins to see if they have arrived. Fingers crossed please! 

Now: table tennis with the swedes. :) 

Doha, Qatar

The last day and a half has taken so much energy. Traveling itself takes alot of energy but when it doesn't run smoothly AT ALL, yea I have no words for it. 

I'm just gonna explain and let you decide if I'm exaggerating or not. 

It all started with a 2.30am wake up call and I was so tired cause I only got 2h sleep.. my own fault I guess but I just couldn't fall asleep. Got up, showered, got dressed and packed the last few things before mom picked me up at 3.30am. 
We drove to the airport, it took us a little over an hour cause we made one stop for breakfast on the way down. 

When we got to the airport, mom gave me a big hug, wished me luck and drove back home. I took all my stuff and went to the check - in desk. I thought: "this is gonna be an easy trip since I already paid for my extra bag and I'm probably gonna sleep the whole flight." HA! If only I knew what was coming. 

When I stood there at the desk she told me there is a possibility that I'm gonna miss my flight cause it's overbooked. I told them that I have  to be in Doha tonight and they promise me that will happen. 
Boarding at 5.30am and when it was my turn to go through the last check point they called me to the side and said "hey, we need to change you flight cause it's full." 
GREAAAAT 
my options: 
1. Fly out at 11 am, have a layover in frankfurt and get to Doha at 9.30pm.
2. Fly straight from Copenhagen to Doha at 3pm and get there one our later. 
So my options from my point of view: 
1. Fly our earlier but give them a chance to mess it up with bags or even get unlucky and miss my connection flight 
Or
2. Sit at cph airport in 9h and fly straight. 

I chose option number two. 

I got free access to the lounge and also 4400dkk as a compensation. 
It took me about two hours to get all that fixed with new tickets, vouchers etc. When I finally got to the lounge I had breakfast number two and then I built a bed out of two chairs and fell asleep. I slept off and on for about 4h and then it was time to eat something before heading over to my gate. 

Boarded. 
Flight was good. I had the whole row to myself, like literally the whole row to myself. Of course I took advantage of this and laid down and slept. Well after I cried my eyes out when watching the movie "the fault in our stars". 
Woke up just before we were gonna land cause the whole plane was shaking, so turbulent but the landing was good. 

Went through customs without and problems but went I got to the belt where my luggage was supposed to be at, I couldn't find them. Sad face.  
They had 9h to get my bowling bags on the flight and they failed. 
Made the report and left the airport and hour and a half later. 

No bowling balls and 6 hours later than I was supposed to. 

It's 5.30pm now. I still have no bowlingballs but I'm gonna go to the airport in 30mins to see if they have arrived. Fingers crossed please! 

Now: table tennis with the swedes. :) 

Qatar Open

Lazy day on the couch. 
Watched a movie, TV and packed. That pretty much it. Well I ate too! Mom came by with Chinese food for dinner- she's the best! 

It's 10.53pm right now and I should be sleeping. My alarm will go off in about 3,5h. Can't wait for that to happen 😴 
Maybe I should tell you guys why? Cause I'm flying to Doha, Qatar!! :) 
I have picked my bowlingballs, I have packed my bags, I have shaved my legs - I'm ready for some sunny weather and good bowling! 😀 

I'm flying for Copenhagen, I have a 2h layover in Amsterdam and then I land at like 4pm in the afternoon swedish time which is 6pm Qatar - time. It's a 2h time difference. 

I will give you all the websites you need to see the results tomorrow! I bowl on tuesday and Wednesday allndnd hopefully Thursday too, in the finals. Flying home again on the night between Thursday and Friday so I'm back by lunch on Friday. :) 

Bedtime! 
Gnite -S.  

What the hell just happened?

I can't explain what just happened. I'm lost for words. That was one tricky match! We bowled on Montreal and it was nowhere close to last weekends match. I bowled 713 today on my four games and I tried everything I could think of. I have so many splits today! 
I don't know how many times today I felt like "that one is good" and then it turned out it was not. It looked like the ball was gonna move but it didn't and sometimes it hooked WAY to hard. I tried every single ball in my bag today and actually I think I did OK the last 3 games, started with 145. I couldn't get comfy and just bowl. I had to chase it the whole time. 

And Btw,  should I mention that I only have one open today except the splits? 

Not fun at all and it was our second lost match this season. 

Rough day on the lanes to say the least. Blaaaah 


Just wow! The last 24h has been crazy. I'm overwhelmed by all the nice words from all of you. Thank you, thank you, thank you to each and everyone of you who has reached out to me. I have read every single message, comment and seen every single "like". I can't stop smiling! Your support means the world to me! 


I just got home from work. We had around 80people eating our buffet today in the bowl so I had to show off my weitress-skills today, haha. I love to work during the cosmic bowling cause I love to meet new people. And tonight was one of the best nights working in a very long time. So many nice and fun people that made it very easy to do my 6h of work. 
Did a test today too, I have an app on my phone that is counting steps, so I kept my phone in my pocket all night to see how many steps i would take before the end of my shift. I started on 3900 from earlier today. Anyone wanna guess what I ended up at? 


Answer is: 

OVER 12000STEPS IN 6H!!  
haha I think that's alot? At least my feet hurts. 

OK, it's time to pack my bags for tomorrow and then get some sleep. Bowling league tomorrow with my girls!! Fingers crossed :) 


FINALLY!

I can finally announce the big news! 

I'm very happy and excited to share the news that I have signed with Roto Grip!! 

To read more about it:
http://www.rotogrip.com/news/?article=506

on the same website you can find my profile if to you wanna know more about me, click on "team RG" and then "International Staff".

So thankful for this opportunity and I can't wait to go to Doha and bowl my first tournament as a Roto Grip International Staff member!! :) 

nightmares

When I went to bed last night I could've even imagine how I would feel when I woke up. That was one of the worst nightmares in my life. It feels like I slept for 5 minutes. I'm so tired and I woke up hysterically crying at one point. I can't tell if it was the first time, second time or the third time but it just went on. Something heartbreaking happened in my dream and I was crying my heart out.. I cried so much I woke myself up.. still crying.. 

What does that even mean? I didn't even know you could do that. 
That was just one thing. One other thing I can remember is being somewhere, new place, somewhere warm. Meeting new people when I all of a sudden I'm running and someone is chasing me. BAM, I wake up. 

Hope I can get some more sleep tonight. 

Even though my day started out really bad it actually ended up pretty good. I finally took time to clean my apartment, I coached the kids, I practiced for a little while myself.. and.. dadadam! I booked flights for my next trip! Already on Monday :) I decided to go to Qatar and give that country another try. I've never qualified in that bowling center but I feel more confident this time. 
Can't wait to go, it's gonna be good weather too 😍 

Bedtime! 
-S 

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This is me. Sandra Andersson. In this blog you get to follow me on my adventures all around the world for bowling.

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