- after this, when I got home, something happened and I'm still trying to figure out what. I had a shower and got ready for my cousins graduation party and all of a sudden I busted into tears and I just couldn't go. I wanted to but at the same time my whole body said no. At that moment I had no idea why. I went out for a walk, I just couldn't stop crying. One tiny thing grew into something so big in my head. As always when I feel sad, I always end up at the beach. I sat there for 40min. Didn't move. Music in my ears. Tears. And I have no idea why it all started. 

My thoughts now: it's been too much lately. So many things to be worried about and trying to get everything together. I guess all of us are weak at times.

Luckily I have amazing people around me who's always there for me, of course also last night. ♡ 

Today was a better day, but I was extremely tired. Maybe I forgot to mention I was away for 2h last night. I'm only "allowed" 30mins workout during detox. I also did some intervals running/pw. So we I woke up, my face was all swollen cause of crying last night. I was tired, exhausted. I was a little sore but much happier with myself. 

Two matches today was a bit too much during detox I must say. 4h on the lanes takes a lot of energy. Good thing I have only one match to bowl tomorrow. 

Anyways we won one of the two today. Which was good. Hoping for another win with the girls tomorrow. :) 

Now: sleep. 

Really hope I get as much energy tomorrow as I got in the beginning of the detox. 

Xx